Message to My Inner Child


On my journey inward,

Darkness looms in hidden corners.

There I meet myself,

Naked and revealed.

It is a face I do not recognize,

As I reach into the depth of my being.

I confront my despair, loneliness, and anguish,

A child full of pain.

She is hidden away,

In safety from the darkness.

Come out, come out, blessed child,

I am here to comfort, love, and protective you.

Let the sunshine heal your pain,

And show you joy you have never known.

There is no more fear to bear,

As we walk together hand in hand into the light . . .

(Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Become the Person You are Intended to Be


Part of the emotional healing process during our spiritual journey is to take responsibility for our own actions.  When we refuse to see our own actions, we continue to make the same mistakes, and simply point fingers at others for our mistakes.  In this healing process, I am learning to acknowledge the mistakes I made, ask for forgiveness from those I hurt whether they forgive me or not, forgive those who hurt me to let go of past hurts, and change the negative karma between me and others.

This is a new semester at my college, and I am practicing just this with those I work.  Last semester, I did and said things out of frustration, and I needed to change that negative karma I created with others.  This semester, I decided to take those with whom I work to lunch to express a new start and beginning in my relationship with them.  Sometimes, when we feel so much anger, hurt, and frustration in our own lives, we will treat others as such.

This year is about healing my past when I felt like a victim, felt out of control, and felt helpless. The truth is that others cannot truly destroy us, only we can destroy ourselves.  Look deep within yourself, and ask your higher self if this is true. We have the power to do the right things in our lives to change that negative karma with others.  After having grown emotionally this past year, I am no longer the victim of my past, but I am becoming the woman that I am intended to be.  Become the person you are intended to be.  Blessings of healing love.  (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Surviving the Perfect Storm

PERFECT-STORMThe perfect storm by definition is “a confluence of events that drastically aggravates a situation.”  This term is used to describe severe storms in our weather, but it perfectly describes our own life circumstances when we have failed to resolve our emotional past issues.  This is the life lesson that I have learned through my own life experiences.

Through our own emotional landscapes, we too have a confluence of events that is our “perfect storm” that will aggravate our life situations resulting in suffering and pain.  For each of us, we have unresolved emotional issues from our past.  We may have forced ourselves to live a “healthy life” currently, but inevitably we will encounter our perfect storm.  

For some of us who have used avoidance and denial to live in our current lives, we may not even see this storm coming, and when it arrives, we may not even realize that we are in the mist of the storm full of destruction and chaos.  We, however, begin to see that the perfect storm has blown our house down, and destroyed the very things we love in our lives.  

By the time the perfect storm is in our lives, getting out of storm becomes a huge and difficult endeavor as we watch the life we have known be destroyed around us.  The way to survive our perfect storm is to make peace with our past, and heal our emotional landscape so we no longer will be impacted as we will see this storm coming and evacuate to a safer place.  Healing love and light. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Meeting My Soul Again


Where boundaries lie,

I cannot see,

When reality and dreams collide.

While misty rain upon my face,

Takes me to another place.

Into the wildness of my mind,

Where I lose myself.

To unveil another life,

I could not see,

All the possibilities.

Into the inner realm of my being,

Where I meet my soul I again.

(Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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Gracefully Letting Go


The concept of letting go has eluded me for most of my life.  I hang onto everything forever.  I have come to realize why I hang onto everything forever, and it is the part of me that is wounded that causes me to hang onto hurt and pain for so long.  It is the part of me that wants to feel loved but did not receive it as a child.  When we begin to heal that injured part of us by releasing all the bottled up pain and hurt, and by giving that love to ourselves, we are able to begin letting go of unhealthy relationships and situations in our current life.  I use Emotional Release Practice found at this tab on my Blogsite Homepage in conjunction, most recently, with body work, yoga, art therapy, music therapy, and writing.

Through these methods of healing, I am learning to let go.  What I have experienced about letting go is that it comes in gradual stages.  When we begin to truly let go, it  is letting go of our own desires of outcomes.  For me, it is my desire to reunite with my parents as a happy family.  In reality, this cannot be and my desires are merely an illusion that I must give up in order to end my own suffering and disappointments. Our refusal to let go of our past will cause our present life with others to be filled with the same suffering and disappointments.  

The beauty of these methods is that true healing occurs, and we don’t need anger, resentment, or hate to force us to let go.  The process is very natural and letting go becomes more and more effortless.  May you let go of things not meant for you. (Copyright 2014 Kundlini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)   

Silent Moments


Images left behind,

In small measures of memories.

Yesterday feels long ago,

And tomorrow has not yet come.

Moments become dreams,

Each more beautiful than the next.

Wind blows softly past my mind.

While uncertainty is gone,

And future is a new surprise.

All I hear is my beating heart,

With silence as my companion. 

(Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

The Power of Denial


The power of denial is undeniable, and only with awareness can we overcome the power of our natural tendency to deny our reality.  This can be seen in a study on whether women who work with colleagues diagnosed with breast cancer are more likely to screen for breast cancer.  This study involved 7,000 women who worked with colleagues diagnosed with breast cancer in the same company over the course of three years . I heard this study on a news program on National Public Radio on,  “How A Co-Worker’s Breast Cancer Diagnosis Affects Colleagues.”  Please click on the title for the actual NPR program that I heard today.

These are the interesting results.  Women who worked with colleagues diagnosed with breast cancer were less likely to screen for breast cancer, and the closer in physical proximity to where this colleague with breast cancer worked, the less likely they were to screen for breast cancer.  The more severe the colleague’s breast cancer diagnosis also resulted in less likelihood for screening for themselves.

What this study shows is that women in this study simply did not want to know that they too may have breast cancer by refusing to screen for breast cancer, thereby denying that they may have breast cancer themselves. Denial may be an inherent part of the human psyche as humans are more likely to deny our reality and simply not deal with real problems in our lives.

It is through self awareness and actively working against our human instincts that will allow us to overcome our natural tendency of denying our reality.  Ironically, I just had my mammogram yesterday, so get screened today!  Infinite healing light. (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

On Changing Perspectives

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During the past few days, I have experienced quite a shift in my perspective. How I view others are beginning to change so dramatically, and I believe it has much to do with my own inner changes.  As I change internally, I see the world so very differently.  Those who I perceive as abusers or enemies are beginning to fade away as I feel less and less like a victim.

My new perspective is not through rose colored glasses, but with a more realistic view.  I believe how I view others now is who they are more like in reality.  Earlier, I perceived others as abusers or enemies, now I see them as benign individuals and do not assume the worst in others in fear of being hurt again.

As I build my own self esteem and worth, I am better able to set healthy boundaries with others, and thus, this fear is dissipating.  It has been such a surprise even to me by my own reactions due to this new perspective.  I am beginning to see the good in others, although I am not naive when others are truly trying to injure me, as I am realistic and will take the necessary actions to protective myself.

Seeing the positive in others does not mean that we don’t see the negative in others. Earlier, I simply didn’t know the difference as I never learned to see the world through clearer lenses.  Healing love and light.(Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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