Prayer for My Journey

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Allow me to find the future I seek,

Without hindrances or strife.

Open the path of least resistance,

To find the miracles within.

Remove the blinders,

And the deceptions to my reality.

Let what is not meant for me,

Fall away,

Allow me refuge in nonresistance,

And allow those attachments to fade.

By attracting light instead of darkness,

May my future manifest my dreams,

To bring flow of joy within my grasp. ~ Brooke

(Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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Beyond Letting Go

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As I have recently let go of many things from my present life that are not meant for me as it was intended to help me resolve my childhood past, I wanted to share what I have experienced after letting go of this major part of my past.  Firstly, letting go is the acceptance of negative situations and events in our lives without resentment, anger, or regret.  It is accepting what happened to us was intended for us to help us learn our life lessons, and learn to make better and wiser choices for our future.  Failure to understand the purpose of these lessons will result in being stuck in this cycle with the same individuals, or others will be brought into our lives to repeat the same experiences.

Once I came to this acceptance, this past fades away, and the fear associated with people and situations that I let go of also fades away. After letting go, I felt this stillness and clarity that I had never observed before.  My choices for myself become crystal clear, and any confusion or doubt that I felt in the past disappears as well.  My higher self is now the center of my spiritual growth, and others voices no longer drown her out as I also had experienced in the past.

As I stand in this stillness, I observe others around me still upset, disgruntled, and reactive, but I have become this stillness.  I have become the peace in the world of chaos, essentially an inert element that is nonreactive to others.  This is perceived by others as lacking a backbone or being a doormat, but I am steadfast on the direction for my life like a mountain in a storm.

This peace that I have given to myself is the gift of self love.  It is feeling and believing that I deserve better, that I am worthy, that I love myself even if no one else does, and I will find the life that I deserve because I believe and have faith in my path forward.  May you find the stillness within you, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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Reflections of Change

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For those of us working on emotional healing and ascension through our Kundalini energy, we feel an incredible fast speed in which our growth and healing takes place.  It is as if our lives are moving at the speed of light, and growth and changes occur within months rather than years. In the past three years, I believe that I have emotionally healed what I attempted to do in my life during my earlier ten years.

This rate of emotional change also causes much physical changed in our lives. Once we begin to heal our past emotional wounds, relationships with those who began or currently exist based on old emotional patterns will end.  Even if we desperately want to hang onto those relationships, we cannot as our intuition will tell us that this is no longer who we are. It will feel like a charade to us.

We may also begin to seek to change our careers, our jobs, or our interests, as we have become a new person through healing. The old patterns of thinking and behaving no longer work for us.  We may even leave the life we have known, and create new and healthier lives for ourselves.  Those around us may find this distressing and upsetting.  Imagine that you have given up drug or alcohol addiction in your life.  You will no longer hang out with those who are still addicted, and you may begin to take responsibility for yourselves by finding a job or a healthy interest.

It is no different with emotional healing and recovery.   We begin to let go of people and behaviors, and what brought us together with them no longer exists within us. These are some of the struggles of this incredibly fast emotional healing and growth we may experience.  What I have learned is that we must give up our past in order to move onto our future that we have dreamed of.  Blessings of love, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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Letting Go of What is Not Meant for Us

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On my journey, the most difficult thing I have found is to gracefully let go of things not meant for me.  I have faltered many times on my journey, and this is intended to teach me to let go of what is not meant for me.  I have hung onto my wounded past refusing to let go, only to be taken me down a path of current day hurt, pain, and more suffering.

I know that this path is intended for me, although it has been painful.  The irony is that If I do not let go of this pain, I continue to replay my past hurt and pain, and continue my own suffering. This part is counter intuitive, as we just want to deny or avoid this pain, but unfortunately, we are brought this pain again and again in our lives when we attempt to deny or avoid it as this is our intended life lessons.

Upon introspection, I realize why certain people are brought into my life, why they hurt me, and what I must learn about myself, and make different choices for my future. Every mistake and failure help us find what we must find within them.  When we are able to learn what it is that we are intended to learn through these mistakes, those painful experiences were not wasted, but have provided the required lessons that are intended for us.

In finding peace with this, we are able to move forward on our paths and let go of the hurt and mistake through forgiveness of ourselves for making these choices, and others for hurting us.  We realize that these are no longer the choices we will make again in the future.  There are plenty of new opportunities and experiences for our future, and we face the future with hope and faith that what is meant for us still await us.  Peace and light, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Living Our Truth

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My recent spiritual and emotional growth have given me experiences that I have never felt before for any lengthy periods.  My feelings about myself and others are so vastly different than what I had felt earlier in my life.  I still get frustrated and irritated, as I am human, but my perspective toward my life, future, and outcomes is one of non-attachment.

It is not indifference about others as I feel very deeply for others and feel empathy toward others, but I simply don’t feel attached to outcomes with them.  I go about my life without feeling that I must be with any particular people, to live in any particular place, or act in a certain way.  I feel free to try things within my values and beliefs, and I no longer try to conform to please others.

I am working on opening my throat chakra, so I have been voicing my own truth. I have noticed others disagreeing with me, and I am okay with it.   I don’t need others to agree with my truth, as I know what my truth is, and why I must face that truth.  Being honest with myself about my reality is important, whether it is pleasant or not. This is facing our own darkness so we can shine our own light upon it. Sending infinite light and peace, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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What is Triangulation?

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The situation involving triangulation is one that most people have experienced, but this is particularly true for those of us who have suffered childhood abuse or trauma.  “In family therapy, the term triangulation is most closely associated with the work of Murray Bowen. Bowen theorized that a two-person emotional system is unstable in that it forms itself into a three-person system or triangle under stress. In the family triangulation system the third person can either be used as a substitute for the direct communication, or can be used as a messenger to carry the communication to the main party. Usually this communication is an expressed dissatisfaction with the main party.”

“For example, in a dysfunctional family in which there is alcoholism present, the non-drinking parent will go to a child and express dissatisfaction with the drinking parent. This includes the child in the discussion of how to solve the problem of the afflicted parent. Sometimes the child can engage in the relationship with the parent, filling the role of the third party, and thereby being “triangulated” into the relationship, or, the child may then go to the alcoholic parent, relaying what they were told. In instances when this occurs, the child may be forced into a role of a “surrogate spouse.” The reason that this occurs is that both parties are dysfunctional. Rather than communicating directly with each other, they utilize a third party. Sometimes, this is because it is unsafe to go directly to the person and discuss the concerns, particularly if they are alcoholic and/or abusive.”

In these situations, most children are coerced or forced into these triangulated relationships. Many times, the child may be used as a scapegoat or blamed for the problems between the two main parties, as they cannot resolve their underlying problems, thereby simply denying the existence of any problems. This is considered emotional abuse.  If the child is sexualized in this triangulation, this is called sexual abuse.  If the child is physically harmed in this triangulation, then this is called physical abuse.

This triangulation dynamic exists with most childhood abuse situations.  When children are habituated to this dynamic, we become comfortable and even drawn to this type of dynamic as adults.  As adults, we begin to seek this triangulation dynamic that feels familiar.  When we begin to recognize this triangulation as dysfunctional and destructive, and begin to heal our past emotional wounds, we are able to break this behavioral pattern.

The major difference once we have healed our past emotional wounds is that the triangulation will no longer feel attractive or seductive, but repulsive and uncomfortable in our adults lives.  When we have reached this point, we are able to turn our life around to engage in healthier relationships and interact in healthier behaviors.  Infinite healing love, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Excerpts cited from: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Triangulation_(psychology)

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Listening to the Higher Self

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As I progress in my Kundalini awakening, the voice of my higher self is very clear and loud, as I had not earlier heard this voice as clearly or loudly.  This voice tells me very clearly how to move forward on my path.  My higher self is very clear about how to stay on course by following my own beliefs. She is clear about what behaviors I should tolerate, and what behaviors deviate from my beliefs.

In the past, I had difficulties hearing my higher self, and I believe the reason is because I did not want to hear what my intuition was telling me.  My ego had its own desires, wishes, and outcomes, and did not want to hear that it is not getting what it wants.

Before hearing our higher selves, we must clear our minds of chatter, what many call monkey chatter. This chatter can block our ability to hear our true voices or higher selves.  This is why many can hear their higher selves during meditation, as the monkey chatter is reduced allowing the voice of the higher self to emerge.

I have used an exercise on accessing the higher self.  Please see “Accessing the Higher Self” tab on my Blogsite Homepage for this practice.  After practicing this exercise for a while, you will be able to access your higher self instantly without going through each step.  May you be guided by your higher self, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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Breaking Patterns

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I want to share my experiences about destructive patterns of behaviors as I have been forced to see and acknowledge these destructive patterns in my life.  There are big patterns such as repeating the same behavioral patterns we experienced in our childhoods now in our adults lives.  Then, there are repeating behavioral patterns with the same person, such as an abusive or unhealthy relationship.  I have had problems with both.

What I have observed is that our egos do not allow us to see these behavioral patterns easily within our own lives. However,we are able to see these patterns very clearly with others, and in fact, we are happy to point these out to others. This ability to see inward is not an easy one, and most of us, including myself, have struggled to see these behavioral patterns that appear obvious to others.

The technique I use to be able to see past my ego into my own reality is called looking into the mirror.  This is how it works.  I will choose someone in my life who mirrors some aspect of my life, such as someone who lived through childhood abuse or experienced trauma.  I will observe their life patterns or relationship abuse patterns, and frequently, something will ring true about their situation to me.

Once this happens, I realize that I am likely experiencing the same patterns as this individual.  Some of the patterns are uncannily similar sometimes down to the number of months that these patterns will repeat.  One such pattern that I have observed about myself involved a pattern of three or four months.  During these months, I will suffer a rejection or failure, and will revert back to a destructive behavioral pattern of returning to a prior unhealthy relationship or begin another similarly unhealthy relationship.  

The key to breaking our behavioral patterns is awareness not to repeat these patterns again. As I am trying very hard to heal my emotional wounds, I will likely revert back to these destructive patterns until I have healed completely.  Another way to determine if we are repeating the same behavioral patterns is to ask ourselves if we have been here before.  Have I experienced these feelings before? Have I experienced this hurt before?  Does this remind me of a similar past experience?  

Awareness will allow us to see the road we are walking down again, and prevent us from becoming stuck on our journeys.  Keeping a diary or journal is another great way of tracking patterns of negative behavior.  As this blog is a diary of my spiritual journey, I have reviewed my past posts and recognized that I have repeated the same behavioral patterns quite a few times before.  May you find your unhealthy patterns and break them.  Blessings of love, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)     

Find What Works for Your Awakening

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In reading many different Kundalini awakening experiences, everyone has a different experience.  As we have different emotional experiences and different emotional landscapes reflecting different energy bodies, thus our Kundalini energy will react differently within our energy bodies.  Therefore, everyone’s Kundalini experience is personal just as our fingerprints are different and individualized.

Because this spiritual area is still growing and developing, we will find many different opinions and theories on Kundalini awakening.  I generally accept many different theories sometimes on the same issue, and I do not believe my opinion or theory is the correct one. Similarly, the earth was determined to be flat by the scientific community until the last few hundred years. When we release ego, we are able to accept other perspectives and ideas, and grow with this unknown spiritual area.

My Kundalini Awakening blog is intended only to share my experiences and share what works for me. What works for me may not work for you, so seek your own methods and find your own solutions that work best for you.  Spiritual awakening is a journey to find spiritual and emotional wholeness in order to live a more peaceful, joyful, and harmonious soul life, so there is no right way or wrong way, just your own way.  Blessings on your spiritual journeys, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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What the Soul Knows

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I have been contemplating about the soul lately as I have had past life memories after the rise of the Kundalini energy.  My first past life memory occurred soon after the rise of my Kundalini energy, and the second one occur after an attunement session during Reiki practice class.

In my first past life memory, I was a White American woman from a wealthy family who gave up my daughter for adoption because I was unwed, and in the second past life memory, I was a Native American/American Indian child who lost my mother to illness.  After having these memories, I began to piece together my soul’s emotional landscape.

I believe our emotional landscapes are a compilation of emotional experiences from our past lives including trauma and losses. I believe that I recalled these past events because they were major emotional events of my past lifetimes. These experiences also cause us to become the person we are in subsequent lifetimes as our souls continue although we may inhabit a different physical body.

During my past life memories, I also recognized a person in those memories of someone I currently know today.  The most interesting part of this is that this person exhibited the same behaviors, similar mind set, and beliefs as he currently has in this lifetime.  I am meeting the same soul just with a different physical appearance.  I believe the purpose of these past life memories is to help us navigate our soul lives after awakening.

So knowing this, I also know that if I don’t heal my emotional landscape of my emotional wounds from my past and current lifetimes, I will continue to repeat and attract similar experiences in subsequent lifetimes with the same heartbreaks, disappointments, and problems.  In this lifetime, I am working very hard to change my emotional landscape in order to have different outcomes, a more joyous soul life, and attract healthier people into my soul life. Sending peace and love, Brooke (Copyright 2014 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

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